As I send everyone off to school this year, I realize I am in uncharted territory. I have a new normal to find that seems to be somewhat allusive at times. I am trying really hard to take things day by day but because I am a creature of habit and really like stability I am finding things overwhelming at times. If I look at everything one at a time I am ok, but when looking at the whole picture, man a little scary. So the kids started school here not long ago. Ariel went into 8th grade. Michaela is in 4th grade. The twins are in 2nd grade. It seems like not so very long ago they were each just starting preschool. They are all so different but good kids none the less. I am so proud of the way they take care of each other. Especially looking after Ariel and being a friend to her. I hope that my decisions teach them that sometimes people have to make hard choices and that each one of us is worthy of happiness and respect. I took for granted so much. I thought Joe knew how much I loved him. Certainly didn't say it enough but "assumed" we were both just busy with jobs and kids and life in general. Never in a million years would have guessed that we would get so far off track and that I could be replaced so easily. I have certainly learned that one has to make sure the most important relationships get the time and attention they so deserve. So my fork in the road is taking me into uncharted territory. I am finding I can finally relax and trust that nothing is going to get thrown my way I can't handle. So on to my new normal. I certainly am not alone, though I am just one.
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